[alig I look in the mirror, and what do i see? I see a huge, chubby girl with so many flaws that needs to be fixed. I see dark circles under those eye, that look realli sad. I see brown roots from black hair, i see this huge body that needs a lot of fixing. I see those love handles popping out of the jeans. I see those stretch marks on the side. I see so much that needs to be fixed. And what do you see? A hot lil sexi girl! No! U only see a hot, sexi girl when i am dressed sexy, and wear 298329083 pounds of make up. Make up has the magic to cover some of the flaws i have on my face, an dmake me look hotter, my clothes makes my boobs pop out and thats what makes me look sexi. But no! If i wore lose clothes, an dno make would anyone say i was beautiful? Would any guy come up to me and be like can i have ur number? F*Ck no, they would only come if i was hot. Why do i have such low self esteem is because theries so much i hate about myself. My biggest thing that made me have low self esteem is my weight. I hate it so much. And what else ****** me off is when i tell my best friends and people i have low self esteem they are liek whats wrong with u girl, look at u, ur so hot blah blah blah. Well no i dont see this in my eyes. I need to fix all my flaws before i have higher self esteem. But ir ead in a magazine that you should walk around ur house naked, and look in the mirror and make good compliments about ur bodi. I think im gonna sttart doing that because my low self esteem is affecting a lot of things. Firsty it affects me how i see myself, how i treat myself because of my low self esteem i have done a lot of bad things. It soooo affected my love life, because i always say no to everyone because i dont want any boi looking at me naked. I need to fix this soon!!! And ir ealli need to learn to love my bodi..n=center]
